HAHAHA

2010-01-16T00:09:00.001+08:00

bye blogger.

my iphone loves tumblr more

http://huishan.tumblr.com/

2009-12-25T01:40:00.000+08:00

letting go; moving on

2009-12-14T12:00:00.001+08:00

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘

2009-11-26T22:43:00.003+08:00

this week didnt go well for me.
chemistry was totally cui cause i dono how to do alot of qns!
if this paper was graded like how jc does, i would probably get a u for this paper. haah
i felt like crying when i was doing it cause there were parts here and there which i dono how to do.
and the worst is i totally skipped qn 5, cause i dont know how to do at all. and there goes my 20 marks. haa and when i counted those parts i did, it only sum up to 40/100 (yeah, i actually had alot of time left to count my marks and stare into space, that's exactly hw bad the situation was)

can you imagine? i didnt sleep the whole night just to study, yet i still did so badly.
i felt super lousy inside, and even till now i am still thinking about it.
when i was in the exam hall, everyone was busy writting
and i don have anything to write. somehow i hope that all the chem papers go missing so that we can retake the paper once more.
chemistry waas like the best module that i have been scoring.
as compared to other modules, i got the best CA results for chem even thou i am a life sci major
so i was hoping that it can pull up the grades of the rest of the modules.
but now, haa gone
haa so much for feeling hopeful

and ytd night, i dreamt of doing chemistry paper.
zzz i hope the bell curve will somehow shift to an extent that i actually pass this chem paper.
hurhur . and when daddy asked me how did i do for my chem ytd, i just smiled
cause i know he has got high hopes on me. and i don wanna disappoint him
but on the other hand, it was never easy to pretend that it was alright

i used to have someone to turn to whenever i feel down
but everyone seems busy with exams now and i think i better not disturb them with such trivial stuff, haaa

yea, doing bad for paper, quarreling etc
are just small matters.
i just dont know how to take things in my stride
maybe you are right, i have been thinking that i was always right
i never like to apologise and give in to you even thou i was wrong, sorry

i need to sleep now
hopefully by tmr, i wont think of whatever that has happened today
good nights people

last paper this saturday, haa my last hope

2009-11-24T20:39:00.000+08:00

I feel like giving up, what about you?

2009-11-12T11:50:00.003+08:00

i run away from problems and reality because i don have the courage to face it alone..

回头才发现你不在留下我迂回的徘徊

2009-11-09T01:22:00.002+08:00

When there’s sunshine, we’ll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever

yay. last week of school (:
finally done with the jap project and bio essay.
haha i was doing my CA4 online using ivle just now.
hurhur, my dear called me when i was trying to find the answers from my notes ( cause i havent study!)
so i told him i will call him back later.
and i look at the time, sia la. one min gone.
hahahha i think the lecturer wants to give us the feeling of how the final paper would be like.
open exam, but i seriously think we wont have the time to flip through the books for answers one. lol
this means that, we need to study alot during reading week huh.
especially for biodiversity. cause it covers like all the living organisms?
which is like alot can!

and there is a practical exam on this friday.
it's on 13th ! friday 13th ! ):
i think i am going to screw it up
hahaha feel like going for shopping with the girls on thurs..
but this practical exam takes up 10% of the final grade sia..
cannot go without preparing for it leh
zzzzzz...

anyway, i miss hui ting
so long never meet her already.
haa so random. LOL

8am paper tmr.
i better sleep now.
it's 1:22am now, nights

i'll be all you need and more

2009-10-30T22:03:00.006+08:00

yay, i had my last chem practical today.

and the best thing is that we dont have to write a report for this practical !

heng sia, cause i have got lessons from morning till late evening for 2 consecutive days.

super tired, i want to use the time during weekends to sleep rather than doing a report. lol

HAHA im going do my jap project later and try to sleep asap

the field trip to the zoo was damn tiring.

walking non stop for 3 hours(except shopping) can really kill me

and it was super humid, so we were all sticky and tired.

but the trip to the zoo was the best pract so far.

cause it wasnt as boring as the previous few..

and the animals are so cute lah, esp the orang utan and kangaroo (: (:

anyway im having jap presentation on thurs.

i hope i wont screw it up lol

cant wait for 13nov to come!

it's the last day of the semster ! (:

haha and if im not wrong, my last paper is on 28nov.

HAHAHA which means that my holiday starts from 28nov onwards
6 weeks ! lol, i cant wait !

hopeful

2009-10-14T00:23:00.004+08:00

丁当 - 你为什么说谎
(http://www.haoting.com/htmusic/382656ht.htm)

这次我走开再没有话要说出来
我不想再期待走下去还能多精彩
我不了解你怎能心安也捉不住你的倔强
可是我知道你你为什么说谎

你说你还在一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这一刻时间可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释你为什么说谎

*你不能说我没有爱过说我没等过难过
我也想说也许能重来我却还是沉默
你一直问我的心到底在不在
问我怎能不遗憾就丢失了爱
而我的泪怎么就流下来

你说你还在一分一秒也没走开
我想留在这里可是这一切已太晚
我不能再像从前一样为我们的明天疯狂
你不必解释你为什么说谎

repeat **

2009-09-26T22:17:00.001+08:00

huishan eats a lot when she is upset

):

2009-09-23T01:19:00.004+08:00

我的不舍有多么的真

i just want you to be happy on this very special day
why cant you just tell me what you really want
how difficult is that?

..and now i know

两个人生气着
看着谁先舍不得
何必这样来试探我们的缘份

2009-09-21T00:23:00.005+08:00

the ugly truth

came back from rovers night cycling this morning.
haha i have to admit that im short ):
cause i had to tip toe when i was on the bike !
and every part of my body hurts like crazy now
but it's worth it lah. lol, i think i need to exercise more.
time to get rid of some fats ! hahaha

i had lsm 1104 CA last thurs, which i think is damn cui.
i dont know how to do alot o f questions haha, but i hope i wont fail.
20 percent of final leh, if fail then gone liao ):
i think i need to start my revision soon.
haha most probably after dar's birthday =D

oh anyway, i was supposed to meet tzewei on sat morning.
but both of us overslept. so we ended up not meeting. lol
this week okay ! cause im having recess week now! haha

):

2009-09-13T22:23:00.000+08:00

im still very happy even though we only had enough time for a movie.
i watched the 3D version of final destination 4 today !
one more week to recess week ! =DD
and i cant wait to go for cyclohunt with the girls ! ♥

happy 4th month dar (:

2009-08-25T00:04:00.003+08:00

现在我只想回到最初的时候

2009-08-11T23:51:00.005+08:00

sigh.

first day of school - )):

i hope i wont regret taking life sci cause i don really like the modules that are pre allocated for me this sem.
and im kinda frustrated with the module bidding system - damn troublesome lah.

it's so different from jc life.
i prefer to have a fixed time table and go for lectures and tutorials as a class .

but now,
zzz..
..
...

sighh

2009-08-06T00:59:00.001+08:00

I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend

hah, it has been a month since i last updated. lol
but anyway, i just came back from sow camp not long ago.
haha quite fun, and i enjoyed myself, except for the bathing part.
first time use pail bathe i think, like field camp sia. haha
the seniors are nice lah, they helped me alot in cors :)

anw i came back from camp on sat.
met my dear on sun for mj, and i won 50bucks that day. lol
went for inauguration ceremony with my og on mon, followed by dinner and drinks at timbre.
tues was nus flag day, went to bishan with the og - woke up like super early? 5am? hah
and today, i met up with my og to make gifts for the seniors/ogls.
after that, i went to bukit batok to meet my dear.

hmm. i will be uploading the og photos when i have the time.
esp the photos we took today (:
hah i am going to sleep now.
need to go buy stuff for tmr's camp early in the morning.
cause i haven pack my bag yet .

sigh, i still need to bid for one more module tmr, and i think i have to take up smth which i don like.
hah dont have enough points to bid for those that i like.

lol, i swore never to touch econs in uni, but i bid for econs this morning
not choice lah. i tried to put in all my points from g account to bid for the gem that i want.but i couldnt get it, cause the min. winning bid was 471, and i only got 400 in my g account. LOL
so i decided to take econs as breadth, haha cause i can get it using 1 pt :)

haa
tutorials, lab, lectures and notes, sian
):

Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed

2009-07-05T13:28:00.003+08:00

I WANT TO SCREAM!!

ah, i just went to see doctor.hah the 3rd time already.
haa he took my blood for blood test hurhur
and i need to be on medication until next friday....

sigh.

一路上不断的俯冲痛到忘了要怎么喊痛
还有谁能够紧握着我的手陪着我期待消失的彩虹

2009-06-28T17:00:00.002+08:00

i don like falling sick.
i don like eating medicine.
i don like to stay at home
i don want to slp the whole day

):

i miss the girls
and i wanna go shopping.

i miss him.
i want piggybacks.

2009-06-26T20:49:00.004+08:00

im sick again.

high fever, sore throat, cough etc.

i;ve got all the symptoms of H1N1, haa

so i decided to see a doctor cause i scared i got it from outside.

and also, if i know earlier then i can go quarantine myself, if not later spread to my parents then jialat already.

anyway the good thing is, it;s not H1N1.

but it's tonsil infection, which isnt any better.

so i am going to stay at home and rest during the weekends.

sad.

i cant play mj. ):

sigh, i am sick for the 3rd time.
and my doctorv rubbed my wound aggain at the clinic.
he asked me about my uni application.
and i replied him, "i wanted pharmacy but i got sci instead" for the 3rd time.

then we had a chat lah, hahaha
sad, he said, "your results not bad wha, still cannot get in. i didnt know pharmacy so difficult to go in"

SIGH

sad right.
and im having high fever now.
my doctor says that ppl who got tonsil will have super high fever.
i hope my head dont explode.

haha

anyway. talking abt exploading..
my phone bill exploded again.
hahaha
but my dad didnt ask me to pay this time round.
cause he knows i am unemployed. lol

he is such a nice dad.
and tgt with the consultation fee and the 3 meals for today,
he spent about 150 on me sia.
hahaha cause my consultation fee is 50 plus

and he said if i were a robot or machine.
i am MSM.

money sucker machine.

HAHA
but on the account that he didnt go meet his friends for gathering just to pei me see doctor, i shall forgive him this time. HAHHAHAHA

oh anyway, i haven restrict my blog to only close friends yet.
haha lazy. maybe next entry ba. =DD

ah, i wanted to call felicia actually.
cause i think she will be bored alone.
but my sore throat is killing me, and i cant talk properly ):
sigh, i hope you will be out of the camp soon!
take care!

when i needed you, you were there and not here.

2009-06-21T04:35:00.007+08:00

So what's with the achievements we've bagged?

it is 435am, and i felt like blogging.
this is probably the last time for some people to read my entry, haha
cause i am going to restrict my blog to only certain people.
like maybe 10 or lesser than 10?
hahaha i think it is better to open my blog to only people who i can confide it, and most imptly those i trust =)
cause i don wan whatever happened last week or so to happen again.

i haven been working for 2 weeks and my bank acc is running dry.
my tuition will stop for 2mths which means no $$ coming in and lesser to shop
haa. i realised i am like changing back to my old self.
back to like 4 or 5 years back.
now that i am not working, i am like sleeping until 12noon or so?
super slack and i am getting very lazy.
i'd rather continue working in BA actually.
cause life seems boring and meaningless now la.

im like wasting my june and july doing nothing, and i hate doing nth.
i practically go fb everyday, chat online, mj, meet jon and my friends. nth else.
but when i am working, i can get to interact with alot of ppl.
see new faces, gossip, chat, prevent my brain from rusting and most importantly- having proper meals during weekdays
hahha anyway, i am going to meet my colleagues this coming thursday, yay :))

..hmm, alot of changes have been occuring this mth.
and there are alot more to come in august.
i miss those times when i meet up with my friends after work.
thou i am like damn tired already.
(HAHAHA friend, are you really this? lol, i haven been meeting you for a long time and i have got so much to tell you. in case you really dont know whether the "you" refers to you, check my blog again sometime later. if you can read my next entry, then you are "you", LOL anyway, i dont meet alot of people after work lah, minus jon like only got 6 or 7? hahaha )

anyway sorry people for the sian sian look for the past few days, esp today (sat)
i am having mood swing partly cause of the weather.
and also because of something that starts with a.
will blog about it in the next entry :)

and there are 3 people who i am really zzzzzz about.
haa, just cant accept the way they are.
as for the one that just added to the zzzz list, i just cant stand the way he thinks.
but anyway, wont be seeing him anymore. so still okay.

the other 2 keep appearing in my life like some nightmare

the first one is someone that cannot be trusted - i was dumb to actually tell that person what i knew initally. hahaha im gg to be smart this round - the only way to stop being dumb again, is not to talk to you anymore. just stay away from me okay?

the other one- i also dont know why you zzz me. it is very diao of you to actually believe what others say and judge me accordingly. but since you started it, i shall just play along with you :)

hahaha i defintely wont hurt them like how they are doing to pple whom they dont like.
i think it is redundant and childish- i thought only primary sch kids do that.
lol, maybelast time lah, now pri sch kids also not so childish la.
haa, come on. grow up please.

ohh anyway. i am going to change my email
rather than removing some contacts from my list, i just don add in the new one? haha
especially those that never come online one lah.
it's just like my phone. i used to keep alot of contacts in my phone.
but ever since j1 ( when i changed phone), i only keep those contacts that i frequently use.
lazy to transfer and slowly type all the numbers again.
also wont be using anyway. plus we change phone like changing clothes.
so what for add those contacts that we know we wont be calling/smsing for sure? hahha

hur it's 5am and im gg to sleep now
=DDD

i hope everyday feels like thirteen june - (:

2009-06-09T23:51:00.001+08:00

I AM UNEMPLOYED!

9 june marks the first day of my freedom, haha
i have been looking forward to this day since dont know when lar.
but when i was stepping out of the office and walking to 255 bus stop, i was feeling kinda sad
lol, strange huh.
i didnt know i would be so upset because there were times when i got so frustrated with the people (actually there is only one - ALLC) and crew sheet that i really felt like leaving.
but obviously there were nice people that kept me going on till now.

the 6 mths in BA really taught me alot of things.
you wont know how scared i was on my first day of work.
can you imagine travelling to a place you never been before?
and never even heard before - some ulu industrial area with only one pathetic bus service number going to the company

jalan ahmad ibrahim or gul circle.
haha when i told tzewei or i forgot who a few months ago.
they thought it was somewhere in malaysia. HAHAHA

and when you are new there, it is really scary.
cause u dont know anyone there.
the worst thing that can happen is that you smile at them and they dao you. LOL
heh and yeah, it takes time for ppl know you and for you to really know them.
haha in fact, i have changed my opinions of some pple over the past 6 mths
i was actually not close with the finance team during dec08 because of some stuff.
but now, they turned out to be one of my closest few in BA.
the gossips, the outings/gatherings, the jokes really makes working in BA really happy.
but of cause there are also some ppl whom u will dislike gradually cause their working attitude sucks.

haha and as for the operations, people like collin, lawrence, timothy etc... made the 6mths enjoyable for me too. lol when it comes to work, trust is impt. and i can see it from them, from the way they talk to me and all that.
and it makes me feel worthwhile to go extra mile to actually help them.

and sometimes when things cropped up and you tio blamed for something that is totally not your fault - and you will feel like strangling whoever that pushed the blame to you.
but because you are new/of lower position, more often than not, you have to keep quiet and swallow it down your throat.
damn pek cek. but yeah, it is all over now YAY!!

okay, off to sleep.
byebye =DDDD

2009-06-01T23:22:00.001+08:00

give me a little push

hello, i am here to introduce you this super hot guy - lee min ho (:

i abandoned my zhong ji san guo just for him okays. lol.
now trying to finish boys before flowers, hopefully by this weekend
then i shall go back to zhong ji san guo again hahaha
bbf is really nice, should go watch if u haven start watching lol

and 8 more days to my last day of work - i seriously cant wait for 9june to come!
i am going to plan my june holidays well
and enjoy myself before sch starts in aug :D

你想要的我却不能够给你我全部

我能给的却又不是你想要拥有的

我们不适合也不想认输

好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭

2009-05-31T04:23:00.008+08:00

I thought I had all the answers

yay, i bot many things today!
and plus the 2 tops and a dress that i bot online, i bought a total of 7 items this week! hahaha

a total of 4 tops

another m)phosis pouch

a new slippers

a dress (:

HAHA, i love GSS and i love shopping even more! :D

damn happy, cause i finally ate subway after so long.
shu hui and i have been craving for it for a very long time! (:
i went to club 21 bazaar with shuhui today before meeting yun and felicia goh.
im so looking forward to 6june! we have been planning to go there since dono when luh.
www! we are finally going there this time round! :DD

oh anyway, i took half day on friday.
and i zi muo man tai when playing mj with jon and his army friends.
ahh, why must cap at 5 tai leh
if not i would be able to bring home like maybe 150 bucks already!
and oh, i need to find something to do after i end my contract with BA.
cause i need $$$
haha, no work --> no $$$ --> no shopping --> ): LOL
some more i am going overseas twice in june if nothing goes wrong.
haa but haven book tickets and plan yet, lol
one with felicia goh and her friends, and the other trip with the yiqian, yun and shuhui, and maybe felicia goh and ting! (:

and i bet by looking at the way i blog, you can tell that i am feeling better already.
haha yeah, i am finally done with nus appeal, sorted out my feelings, and most importantly, i know what i want now :)
i am so glad it is all over lah, so zzz last week.
didnt sleep well for the past few days sia, only had like 3 or 4 hrs of sleep per night haa

super sian, my house is going to be infested with disgusting insects soon.
cause of the construction that is going on at the lobby.
there are alot of cockroaches along the corridors and void deck.
and i found 4 of them in my kitchen this morning.
but well, they have been killed ! (:
haha if i were to live on the 13th level or smth jiu hao, then they cannot come in alr..

hmm.
.....
...

it's 440 am now HAA
good nights!

it was hard resisting the urge to take the easy way out

2009-05-28T01:25:00.000+08:00

do you really know what i want

before i start, i wanna apologise to someone regarding the previous post
haa, really sorry for being sooo mean.

and yeah, i am so tired.
haa damn upset now, i know i need to sleep cause i am working tmr.
it is 4.5 more hours to 6am -.-
but i need to settle my online appeal first.
well, even if i don have to do my appeal online, i think i also cant sleep tonight haha

somehow, i wish i could be stronger
in thoughts and decision making.

whatever it is, i think i have made up my mind.
and this time, im just going to be truthful to myself.

几乎是所有时间在想你快乐之后是压抑
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定

holding loose or letting go?

2009-05-19T22:41:00.004+08:00

i am so disgusted by what people told me about you.
this is super annoying because you people are spreading nonsense.
come on, just look into the mirror, you are really not up to the standard lah.
you are the kind of guy that nobody would actually take a second look on the streets.
i dont care whether she was the one who made it up or you really thought that way.
but anyway, things have already been over for so long
so i wont go think about it anymore after today.
hahaha i just hope that we shall never ever meet again (:

and serve you right man.
i couldnt believe she actually leftyou for another man.

i am not WOLS, hurhur
i know she left you like long ago.
haa but i just don wanna make this post too obvious to people who doesnt know your horrible background.

thank me please? LOL

2009-05-14T21:27:00.001+08:00

i need space

i find it so hard to smile these days.
but im glad that in the midst of everything, they are people ard me giving the moral support that i needed

i cant explain why am i feeling down but yeah, it is always the same few things that are bothering me.
university admission, work, tuition, etc.
and haa. i overspent this week.
160 for daddy, 200 for mummy, 100 on food and transport?
200 on shopping/entertainment.
and wow, i spent 600 plus this week. twice the amount i earn per week. LOL
at the rate i am eating/shopping.. i will go bankrupt sooner or later.

but anyway, tmr is friday.
haha friday is a day worth being happy for.
so i should happy. furthermore i am meeting the girls on saturday again!

HAA.
i just hope that everything will turn out just fine.

心情天天天天纷乱我一再试探你一再隐瞒

2009-05-12T16:40:00.000+08:00

The missing piece

haa didnt go work today.
had something this morning, so i took unpaid leave today.
anyway, i got acceptance letter from both nus and ntu already.
but i think i am going to appeal.
haa i didnt know gp grades do affect the admission to certain university courses that much
i just hope that i can somehow get into the course i want
and yep, i was feeling lousy these days
i just feel that i have got lesser time to do what i want..

hmm, went to town with jon last sat and we saw cheryl there
HAHA, she couldnt recognise me lol
i really didnt know i changed that much. haha
sigh, i have got so many things to do.
but i dont knowwhere i shld start from.
hur, totally lost luh. and i dont have all the time to think what i want. haha

i miss those times when i hang out with the girls.
not just shopping luh. as in go sentosa, ecp etc..
and i cant wait to go wild wild wet !

..
.
...

do i take the safer route to happiness, or do i take the risk and invest everything to either get so much more or lose everything?

2009-05-05T23:04:00.001+08:00

:)

i miss you

2009-04-22T21:36:00.001+08:00

I won’t tell you that I love you

yay, today is wednesday and tmr is my off day!
heh heh shopping shopping and more shopping (:
i just have to work another day on friday and this week will be gone !
yes yes yes, the thought that i am going to get my pay makes me feel excited all over again! LOL

oh anyway, i went to play bball at nus with the girls on sunday.
hahaha it has been a long time since i played bball. lol
and i think we aint too lousy, cause we are still accurate, not much air balls HAHA!

FELICIA, ARE YOU READING THIS? LOL
when are you going to go beach resort with me?
dont forget about our plans in JUNE! hoho

Oh, i cant wait for tmr!! ;D ;D
good nights people!

let this be a lesson for me to rely on myself more and less on you

2009-04-18T19:31:00.000+08:00

why did it had to turn out like this?

sometimes i do stupid things, like really stupid stuff.
and more often than not, i start regretting after that.
haa i often get upset for things that can be avoided and things that should not be happening.

..
.
so much for feeling hopeful.
maybe it would be better to let things remain the way it is now

when there’s sunshine, we’ll shine together
told you i'll be here forever

2009-04-16T21:23:00.006+08:00

SAD.

I CANT USE MY MSN
and i dont know why,
i think it;s not just the msn
but the computer itself has problem ):

hur i am giving up hopes on my old com
i shall start using my laptop the next time i go online.

hmm this week abit sian.. lol
cause nothing much to do at work.
not much hotel/flight bookings, just data entry, filing and blah.
and i felt kinda irritated at work recently
dono why, but some people are just getting on my nerves
i hope tomorrow will be better, i really hope so.
i will try to smile more, like what i always tell tzewei.
but sometimes it is really not easy.
tomorrow is friday, and there is town hall meeting in the morning.
i am going to see the so-called good looking manager that my colleague has been telling me since the first day i worked. excited hoho
heh heh he came to singapore specially just for this meeting you know
haha i just hope i wont doze off tmr during the talk

anyway, i went out with jon ytd.
and yep it has been a long time since we last went out.
went for movie and dinner at jurong point. haa
we watched knowing.
and the movie's ending was zzz
if i were the son, i wont leave my dad for another planet.
alamak. and the ending was that - everyone died -_____-

and yeah, i am so looking forward to tmr.
hahha i will be heading to st james with the girls to celebrate ting's birthday tmr night (:
we still haven got her her present thou ):
super suay lah, the bag we wanna buy for her was the last piece and it's a display item.
sigh will try looking for it tmr with felicia when we meet up (:
good nights.

i have got a new EYECANDY, lol
he is super cute (:

i wished i could discard it anytime I want.

2009-04-14T22:40:00.004+08:00

BYEBYE EC :))

2009-04-07T23:07:00.007+08:00

take my hand and we'll run forever

i was quite pissed off at work these days.
some people (from operations and ____ ) are just so irritating.
they dont talk nicely to you when they have a favor to ask from you.
was quite angry with one operation guy.
he wants me to help him book his flight but he cc the email to me
how the hell am i suppose to know that i need to book for him?
cc means you want me to know about it and that i dont have to take action leh.
plus you send so many people, including the admin girl in malaysia.
how i know you want me to book la, you think i can read ur mind huh?
hur, i have got work piled up to my head you know?
i am not as free as you think.

and there are alot more irritating people (to be continued, lol)
but still, i am glad there are nice people from operations and office to hang out with and talked to. just recently, i went to yishun to celebrate a colleague's 21st bday.
haha i kind of like her cake, 3D pooh bear cake okay. (will upload photos to facebook when i have the time)
hee. i will ask mummy to make one 3D mickey mouse cake for me when i turn 21

anyway, i had dinner with shu hui at bakerzin today
and the dinner was not bad haha
we were planning our thursday gathering, something which i have been looking fwd to since monday.
and on my way home, i was pondering about some stuff.
i saw someone who i thought we were close before, yet when we met each other, we were like complete strangers.
and what pissed me more was that person beside my friend. zz.
hur you can have new friends, girlfriend, whatever i dont care
but you shouldnt let your world revolve just around that few people.
hello, i took the initiative to sms you and catch up with you not because i have nothing to do okay?
hur if it is not because we were once close, i wouldnt be bothered.
if you think you are satisfied with that group of friends and ____, then that's fine with me.
and please dont get the wrong idea that i like you or whatsoever.
ya i know many people thought so, but my answer is no.

haha can someone define close to me?
this question has been bothering me for quite some time.
i met up with my good fren (yes, it's you luh) on last friday and he said we are still not close enough to let me know something.
and then i thought, hmm he is like one of those few that i can confide with.
as in when i tell him stuff, i dont have to hide anything and i can talk non stop luh.
if likett still not close then zzz.
haha but anyway thanks for being there for me when i need someone to talk to huh.
it's very comforting to know that your friends care alot about you
and i wanna say, huiting, you are so sweet.
i was super touched when she talked to me and consoled me on msn last week
as in i never tell her about it, but just by looking at my msn nick and everything, she knows (:
and you know, she is that kind who always go mia online.
so yeah, thanks for everything friend (:

it's 1130 and i need to sleep now.
i will blog again when i got my zoo photos from shuhui.
byebye (:

every second chance begins with a first step

2009-03-29T00:33:00.003+08:00

i looked for you when you werent around

heh heh, i just watched confessions of a shopaholic
haha very funny, the three of us laughed until crazy.
the female lead is really fortunate
and i wished i had a boyfriend like hers. lol
someone reliable and understanding. haha
i think it is really comforting to know that someone is there for you in the midst of everything (:
especially when you are lost or in awkward situation that requires someone to save you. haha

and her dad reminds me of my dad.
hoho, funny and sweet.
haha my dad was the first person who made me smile after crying on wednesday night.
it was just a simple sms with only one sentence. haa

anyway, i have been shopping for the past 2days, lol.
feeling good (:
cause i love shopping. HAHAHA
it doesnt matter whether money is flowing in or out as long as i am happy (:

ah, it's 240am already.
chem tuition tmr morning at 8am. zzz.
which means that i have to wake up at 6plus haha.
better not late cause i am going to zoo after tuition tmr!
yay! i am going to see giraffe, lion and many many more ;D

i wish i could be stronger so that in times of doubt, i can always fall back on u. Make me and mold me to be more like u each day and help me to see that everything falls back into place..

disappointed in you
& the things you say

2009-03-27T00:02:00.002+08:00

those were my dreams and thoughts that you never knew or asked.

2009-03-25T19:04:00.002+08:00

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

life is always full of crossroads
there arent traffic lights to give you enough time to think about where you want to go.
and i guess that's probably why people only start regretting when everything has come to an end.

haa. i had thought i would fight all the way for what i love.
but it turn out the other way round.
maybe it was because i know you werent serious.

HAA so much for expecting in a decision that you have already decided...
...
.....

and now i know.

2009-03-10T23:20:00.003+08:00

expectations.

it is not about how well you have done,
but how much effort you have put it.

i am not angry over what she says recently
i just got reminded of a mistake that i've made a couple of years ago.
haa, she reminds me of your honey words and that i was always the last to know any decisions you made.
but at least now for sure, i know i wont have to see you again.

the pain you are feeling now is not even half of what i have been through.

2009-03-01T23:10:00.003+08:00

photos which are taken one mth ago, haha (:

.......

2009-02-26T22:19:00.002+08:00

身邊有太多風景　我卻停在這裡
說我傻的可以　還不是因為你

2009-01-29T22:48:00.006+08:00

晚安的简讯是你的贴心
一直以为永恒的爱就是你

有人说长大爱就会变心
只剩下回忆
不再有卡片美丽写讯息冷漠的彻底
直到那天你的缺席我才相信

2009-01-26T01:32:00.005+08:00

You’d know how much I've missed you.

happy chinese new year pple, haha.
i am not sure if anyone still reads my blog.
haha paiseh, i know i blog like once in a blue moon, hur.

had been working for a mth or so.
and i guess it did benefit me quite a bit.
other than the miserable pay, im actually quite okay with the rest la
can get to widen my social circle and met different kinds of pple.
but this week didnt go well for me, in fact the worst week i have been thru since i started work.
many things happened and i don wanna think about them anymore.

anw, i was reading my colleague's blog just now.
was really surprised that she had went thru so many problems last yr.
yet she always look so strong and cheerful.
hmm, if you see this and you know who you;re, cheer up okay.
im sure MOOMOO year will be better for you.
{and i wanna be as strong as you (: }

(:

The world seems to be fading,
and I just want to run and hide.

2009-01-03T22:12:00.006+08:00

tomorrow is what we use to console ourselves when our day went really bad

i guess i cant do away with blog cause i always have so much to rant about
well, 2008 ended pretty fast huh.
there are too many pple i wanna thank for making sch life enjoyable.
my clique, my bball girls, the guys in class, etc.
and of cause the stupid pig who has no choice but to listen to my never ending stories on the phone (lol, you know who u are huh? )

didnt do much after a levels.
just shopping, play mj and yea, night cycling.
hoho, night cycling was horrible and tiring.
i will never want to go for night cycling after work.

oh yea i started working on the 10th dec at some ulu place.
sigh, i dono if i made the right choice to work.
the people are okay. just that im not being myself.
hurhur, office politics lah. do what or say what also must think twice.
different from sch alr. haha.
i just hope that the 3mths contract quickly end, like really.
and im really so glad that the contract will end before my birthday.
i cant imagine working on my birthday,hur.

and yea, i spent my last day of 2008 and the first day of 2009 with the crazy girls.
haha the fireworks at marina really pretty huh.

(will continue with the photos next time)

haha and after count down, we went to felicia(ang)'s hse for mj till morning.
yea, mj again haha.

was feeling really lousy on friday.
it was only the 2nd day of 2009 and yet, so many unhappy things happened.
quite minor stuff la, i guess i was just having mood swings.
mummy told me to take an earlier bus cause sch starts alr.
and she's afraid that i will be late for work.
so i took the bus 180 at 7:10am and i was super early. i reach chinese garden at 7:35 when i was supposed to be there at 8am for company transport.
so sian la. had to wait so long.
went to work and had to do alot of paper work again.
and i accidently cut myself with paper and cardboards, so clumsy can.
i have got so many scars on my hands now, one of which my colleague thought that i attempted suicide cause the scar was at the wrist. hur, crazy..

and after tat i tio ps, was supposed to meet fren but he couldnt make it.
so zzz, i told my parents don cook and so i had no dinner on that day.
and when i was on my way home from my agency, i alighted from the wrong bus stop and i had to walked 2 bus stops back home.
worse of all, i forgot to tap my ezlink card.
so suay la. sighh..
and yea, here are some photos taken a couple of weeks ago..

christmas day with ting (:

christmas eve (:

at changi airport

felicia shan yun (:

2008-08-10T13:01:00.005+08:00

JAM HSIAO

hoho, im going to see jam in real person like really soon.
off to dragonfly now, bye people ((:

yay.

2008-08-03T20:05:00.002+08:00

i wish i could tell you that im feeling better everyday

hur, haven been updating for quite sometime
hmm, was too busy with school work i guess.
im glad that im finally done wif the pq and sgc
which has been driving me nuts for the past few days because of some ~~teachers~~ people. zzz

and yea, i went for class cip on sat.
which i think it was rather a waste of time.
reached there like really on the dot, 830am.
and i tot i was going to be late.
but hur, the few of us who were early had to wait for 1hr plus for the rest.
like seriously pissed.
and when we reached there, all of us were busy helping out.
hur except for some whom i think were there doing nth actually.
~~the f work was at the tip of my tongue~~
whatever la, it's all over now. good, no more cip (:
zzz, and to think that ms chong actually says that im like a vase during gp.
i think the vase describes them more. -.-
ah super sian luh, gp was totally an embarrassment lah.
whats more, i still need other pple to save me and continue with the slides. sian

oh, anyway, the j2s had a bball match with j1 on friday.
we won, hahaha. and i think we did a good job.
haha at least we played well for the very last match(:
to win was seriosuly not easy cause we haven been exercising for a really long time.
and im glad that the team spirit is still there
kinda miss them actually. trainings were tough, but seriously fun.
and for a moment, i realised that im longer enjoying going to sch as much as i used to be ever since i stepped down from bb.
school work and the people around me has been draining my energy
it seems like there's nothing much to look forward to
and in fact, i dread going to school/class actually.
and yea, that explains why i haven been blogging. hahaha.
cause besides all the gossipings, there's really nth to blog about.

我的不舍有多么的真

2008-07-30T22:45:00.002+08:00

the knot that was entangled in me, finally undid.
{im close to tears, and you;re only almost here}

2008-06-02T22:15:00.004+08:00

unforgettable, i must say.

yea, im finally back from cambodia
haha the 5days really made me learn alot. like really.
quite impossible to blog everything here la.
cause talking about trip and people on phone took me 3hrs plus ytd night.
and somemore i didnt finish saying what i wanted to
cause batt went flat.
so i shall perhaps try to summarise here.

yea. we got lost and everything
changed hotel. moved here and there.
and keeping ourselves alert and awake despite feeling so tired.
not easy i tell you, esp for people who sleeps alot like me.
and haa thank god, i napfa gold one luh.
if not i would have died cause of the running.

and this trip has definitely made me learn alot more about myself.
i realised i don trust pple easily. haa
and i don mean keeping secrets that kind of trust.
but to trust pple who can make decisons that can affect ur life, future or whatever.
to put it another way round, maybe i find it hard to trust peple who have once or for more betrayed my trust before.
i don like the feeling of being insecure you see.
like you dont how who will betray you, what will happen to you that kind of feeling luh. haha

was quite upset bout some stuff
which i had been thinking and thinking during the trip
and even till now
haha not sure if i made the right chocie
but no matter right or wrong, i think i still feel upset bout what that you have said luh haha.
it's like if there's choice A and B
if u prefer choice A and i prefer B
den i would hope that u stick with ur choice A and not just follow me blindly.
cause it would be irritating to me if you would to accuse me for asking or worse forcing you to follow my choice when i didnt.
like how would you feel if i were to push the blame to you only when the plan fails? like wth.
seriously crap la. for that moment, i felt like banging the wall and just die.
hur, but no. not when im in cambodia.

and yea did i mention i lost my sim card in cambodia?
haha really zzz.
aiyahh. alot of things happened la.
tell you pple the details when im in school la
haa this trip has definitely made me change my perspectives of people, be it teachers or friends.
and the disappointment i felt was way beyond the joy and laughter i had initially.
but later things changed for the better la.
cause there were obviously nice people there too
and i would say the majority of the pple were nice and helpful la
some of them super funny la
haha esp the pw group. the one with geraldine, alvis and sq(the very tall j1 bball guy)
they all very friendly and nice lah.
it would be great if our class got more of this kind of jokers la.
den teachers wouldnt complain saying that we are draining their energy and not being responsive. haa

and yea along the way, i realised i have the tendency to depend on pple(obviously not all, just those whom i trust luh -___-).
i think i depend quite alot on my group leader. haa.
and i really need to thank him for being so protective and nice.
protecting and looking after me like a sister. lol
even thou we dono each other that long
really apreciate what he has done so far luh.
and despite all the disappointment, i think i still enjoyed myself.
and yea,if i were to choose again, i would sign up for that trip, go for interview and everything.
i would never forget the 5days that i've been thru
cause having me telling you all these and you experiencing and seeing it yourself is different la.
so it's a rare experience i must say.
haha and yea will upload the photos when i have the time.
one week has past just likett and i haven really started revision
haha. so bye people.

i dont' want to fly,
if you're on the ground.

2008-05-20T22:07:00.002+08:00

{this is love}

"眼泪再苦再咸,有你安慰又是晴天
马路再宽再远只要你牵就很安全"

2008-05-16T19:53:00.003+08:00

(guess i'm wishing my life away with things i'll never say)

2008-05-08T21:04:00.004+08:00

i looked for you when you werent ard

my mind is gone, i'm spinning round
and deep inside, my tears i'll drown
i'm losing grip, what's happening
i stray from love, this is how I feel

so what now?

2008-05-04T18:12:00.007+08:00

i never thought of letting you know

ah econs suck big time.
i hate econs.
and i dono what;s wrong with all my notes.
they're are like hiding away from me.
yea yea im going to fail tmr's lecture test cause i cant find my bop stuff.
haa since when did i ever pass econs anw? lol
whether or not the notes are wif me doesnt matter much actually. haha.

anw, the super hot weather is driving me nuts i tell you.
and i hope the hotel in cambiodia got air con.
cause the weather there would be a thousand times hotter than sg.
aiya, why am i wasting time blogging.
this is a random post luh, bye pple.

us.
together.

2008-05-01T14:13:00.003+08:00

You cut me open and i keep bleeding love

yay. it's labour day (like finally)
hurhur, towned with the 2girls ytd.
haa i love shopping wif them.
super fun, we laughed like mad i tell you. hoho
cause we were really super high
anw we saw the bball girls there too.
HAA we laughed and talked like aunties tgt ;D

anyway, school was okay this week. tiring thou.
we had napfa test on tues, five stations only.
bt quite sad actually, cause i got 173cm for sbj.
and it;s a D. i was so close to getting a C luh. zzz.
alot of homework to be done today.
and tests are coming up.
super off track cause i missed alot of bio remedials.
need to do like really lots of make ups and ya. sian.
bio remedial like getting less effective alr
especially when the remedial grp is getting bigger in size and __________.

SIAN. im getting tired very easily thesedays.
it's the begining of may alr.
very soon, we will be taking gp paper
and then i shall fly to cambodia alr.

sigh.
tmr, there's

maths test
econs BOP remedial
gp class test
cambodia briefing

for me.

& monday, we have got econs lecture test (BOP and foreign exchange)
tuesday got chem class test on ion eqm, chem eqm and organic chem.
wednesday there's still mock spa skillA

and i haven finish my my gp reflections.
i think i'll do gp tonight luh.
tired alr, later still must go out celebrate my grandpa's bday.
yea. anw. i saw this photo (click to view) at uaretheone.mediacorptv.sg.
the two girls look like the 2twins in my class last yr right.
i think it's them luh hahaha
not sure they went there to support pple or take part in the contest thou.
haa anw i think icaru nt bad. lol, hope he wins ((:
kay. think i better start doing hw.
bye people :D

i just want to be happy again

2008-04-28T22:12:00.005+08:00

i like you

when will i stop assuming things around me?
i wish the world could stop for their one second
and let me take a deep big breath.

haa.
something better

2008-04-12T12:40:00.001+08:00

if you could see me now,
you would know just how,
how hard i try not to wonder why

2008-04-06T17:01:00.000+08:00

love ;DD

2008-04-04T23:56:00.003+08:00

i went away just when you needed me so

had a really lousy week
like so zzz. totally sian about everything.
i kept bombarding myself with lots of questions,
and i just keep thinking. really hard bout why things turn out so bad.
i want to remove all the negative thoughts i had but i just cant.
lousy results. like darn lousy, so much so that i feel like tearing up my chem paper. was super duper disppointed with the kind of results i was getting for chem. and i didnt even feel like doing corrections for my chem paper. esp for the essay part. i failed terribly. like 13/40 or somewhere along there when i used to get like 27/30 last yr.

and knowing that im feeling that upset alr.
some pple still keep rubbing on my wounds and made things worse.
and now i think i would maybe have to drop one of my H2s,
or maybe not. if i managed to convince the hod to allow me to continue wif 4H2s next week. but the problem is, im not even sure if i shld continue wif 4H2s.

anyway i was also pretty upset bout my fren A
it all happened on err. i forgot which day la.
but it goes like this.
fren B and i was really bored and we started talking bout like whatever we can think of luh. results schoolwork family and everything.
and so happened, we mentioned bout fren C, and we laughed. like really loud.
den fren C told fren A that we were talking bad bout fren A
like wow, friends for 1yr or more alr.
now then i realised, that's what she thinks of me.
yes im really disappointed.
how could you just jump into conclusion luh, and for goodness sake, we were laughing bout a totally different matter.
im seriously wondering why people change so easily.
people whom i thought to be really nice and caring werent so now.
whereas those whom im not as close turned out to care of me even more.

sigh and this led me to think bout what i was thinking on monday.
on how fragil friendship can turn out to be.
a friend i have known for 5yrs, my so called good friend becomes a hi bye friend whom doesnt even remember my birthday when my jjc friend (whom i know only for 3mths during pae) actually remembers. how funny can this be. friends whom i haven been seeing, like ian, royston, sinhoe and blah remembers. yet you dont. HAA
yea i know it's not possible to have enough time to sustain all our social interactions but i hope after jc, i can still keep in touch with at least 20% of my friends in class and in bball. and as for now, just enjoy the remaining few mths wif one another. haa

and talking about class.
hurhur my class is super not united.
cause there're like two groups of pple.
one group feels that having good grades cause you mug for it means you're not smart or simply lousy. another group of people believes in the "you reap what you sow" kind of theory. and i think it's very sad for us to make awful comments bout one another. especially behind their backs. cause i thought as a class, we shld work hard tgt. encourage one another. and make constructive comments to help one another and not say things like, ' hur, study so hard but results still so lousy' behind one another's back. another problem was about doing homework luh. what's wrong about doing homework. being on task and following lectures means you are mugger? like huh?? i wan to do hw and pay attention in class is because i don wanna fail my papers anymore. like really sian with all the Us alr. and i finished up my maths ytd was because monday need go thru alr and tmr i would be out the whole day wif my bball clique. and i need sunday to do the rest of my homework, and rest before the entire week starts all over again right. ahh, why am i explaining all these. but anw being friends, doesnt just meant having company.but rather, it;s to be frank about almost everything. haa i find it seriously
stupid to lie to your friends about how much you study and everything. like what do you actually gain? by helping others, and explaining what they donno, you not only help them, you help yourself too by understanding the concept better right. haa enough said, cause i think it's stupid to keep on babbling and babbling bout the same matter. but anw, i tink our class people need to really reflect bout this matter la, if not the results are not going to improve. cause this kind of studying environment is really lousy.

and besides that, cca is another sad thing.
cause i was really demoralised.
but i think today's training was better.
thou i wanted to cry initially.
cause the situation was like so tense up luh.
and i was performing like really lousy.
very disappointed la, but i think im improving bit by bit la
hopefully the 5of us(my bball clique) can get into the team.
cause we trained so hard tgt, inside and outside sch
and i don wanna see any of our effort go to waste luh.
yes, we trained hard. keep laughing doesnt mean we're not serious.
if we also face black black den training wouldnt be filled with joy.
cause when i step down and looked back, i want to picture trainings filled with joy and laughter, with all our hard work being paid off.

haha anw i think i shall stop here.
im tired of typing and typing non stop.
this entry is super long.
bye people.

anyway, happy birthday dilys!
seeyou 10hours later. lol
and girls, thanks for the teddy bear. i like it alot (:

2008-03-27T20:30:00.003+08:00

I can't find myself

haa i haven been exercising for a very long time.
and this is really bad.
nationals is coming and yet, im still on mc.
chances of me getting into the team thus becomes so much lower.
this means that, i wont be able to even join them for team training soon.
yea, like really soon. cause junliang is gg to finalise the people in team like either tmr or next wed. part of me, i wanna get well soon, and join them for training.
yet, im also afraid to go back, realising that im like so far behind them.
cause you know, it;s really going to be very demoralising.
i've heard sy mentioned bout her 7km run wif jl,
bout how stress were the rest of them.
and then i wonder, when was the last time something like this happened?
3yrs ago? 4yrs ago? i really dono.
but the last time i actually ran 7km or more was really very long ago.
maybe 3years ago, to be exact.
yea, and that's history.

my 2.4 timing used to be like 10:30++
now in pj, my fastest is 12mins plus, hur, like damn slow.
yea yea so they were all just history.
something that would never happen again.
never.

would be getting bio and econs results tmr i guess.
not at all nervous or worried
cause i alr expected the kind of grades that i would be getting
overall, our class performed terribly la.
like really lousy. seriously don even fit to be called 07s01.
hahaha but what to do huh?
our class. hmm, i think i better not say anything
maybe i'll say it some other time ba (:

sigh, im off to shopping online.
i hope this time i can find a nice boyfriend tee HAA

i wish i could carry your smile in my heart
for times when my life seems so low
it would make me believe what tomorrow could bring
when today doesn't really know

2008-03-22T23:12:00.002+08:00

cause everytime i fall, i reach out to you

zzz, i seriously think i shld change to a new site.
to somewhere that can lock entries or smth liddat.
cause it feels restricted to blog here.
the more you blog, the more you realised there are alot of things that you just cant write here.
so yea, just let me rant bout this horrible week.
and it all started with monday.
yes, to have my birthday clashing wif econs paper is really not good.
was really disappointed cause the number of pple remembering my birthday was pathetic as compared to last yr. yes. alot of belated wishes.
but well, thanks for remembering anw.
even to those who sent the bday msges to my old number.
yea,i just checked the msges in my old phone today.
haha. it was my fault actaully, cause i didnt inform everyone bout the change of number. not even my relatives, haha cause i was lazy. sry.

alot of things happened la, i don wanna talk about it.
i gonna pretend that nth has happened ( haa, like always)
yea _______ was right, as long as i get my As for my a lvls can alr.nth else matters much more i guess.
2 yrs ago, more than half of my class went up stage for getting like 5A1s.
and i was the only few sitting there in disappointment.
if i had studied like the rest did,
if my eng results werent that bad, i would have been in sdp like the rest of the 4h2 pple did.
i think those 4yrs in css cum last yr's UUU results definitely made me grown up to be more sensible this time round.
but i've nv regretted coming to pj thou.
cause i've met this bunch of people whom i would nv forget
yes, you, you, you and you haha ( you people know who you're (: )

haa and if not for some lame shit thingy,
i would be playing bball right now.
wif fel sh dilys they all.
and maybe sy would be there too.
haha, nvm la, at least there's still training on mon.
so i would be seeing them soon (:

and as for the common tests,
i don think i would do well la.
but i would say i did studied for it this tym round, unlike promos.
and obviously i would expect for better results la.
quite disappointed for chem and maths paper, cause i think i didnt put in enough effort.
but bio was a different case.
i studied, but i really don have enough time to finish the paper. haha
hopefully i wont die of heart attacks upon seeing the results next week haa
yea,common test is just a rough gauge, letting u know how prepared u;re for a lvls.
so don be affected by those grades la, work hard for midyr people.
and as for now, say byebye to ur notes and hello to ______ (insert whatever you like, lol)
okay, that's lame. haha

so bye people, it's time to sleep

let me trust.

2008-03-18T23:03:00.003+08:00

it's really not easy.
and im losing all my hopes on you

I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet..

2008-03-01T01:02:00.001+08:00

just when i thought i was getting strong, i stumbled again

just reached hm not long ago.
hur, the four of us went to jurong area to play bb w/o fel.
haha and i met their so called shifu.
i think he did look quite like jay chou huh.
but a larger version or smth la. haha.
didnt play much just now.
as compared to last sat.
haa i think all of us werent in the mood today.
especially me, sigh.

i;ve got so much i wanna say and rant.
but more often than not, i find that i always keep things to myself.
i see alot of people ard me having problems,
feeling upset and being caught in dilemma.
and somehow i got affected too.
and the feeling is even more terrible
especially when you have ur own set of problems too.
it's just that you feel that you are strong enough to handle it yourself.
and there you are consoling pple with the same words your friends once told you.
or perhaps the same words that you shld be telling yourself now. haa.

yea i think by now, you shld know how sucky today was for me.
had this stupid cross country thing.
zzz, i think i shld have ran instead of walking throughout.
i didnt know they give medals to top twenty for j1s and j2s separately.
thought is whole sch compete for only the top twenty.
so i thought since chances of winning so low, might as well dont run la.
walk with my classmates btr, lol
furthermore, i don have to mood to run also. haha

and guess what.i saw smth which i least wanted to see after the cross country.
haa 29th feb, a day that was supposed to be special, turned out to be such a lousy day for me.
and this whole week, we had tests for almost everyday.
monday got econs paper, tuesday gp and bio, wednesday chem spa and thursday i had maths.
and i still got bball training on mon and match on wed.
by the time i reached hm, alr 9plus or so le.
damn tired la, and so sian diao can.
we lost the yjc match when we were actually leading in the first place.
sigh, all the hardwork were like wasted huh?

cause we went to play bb last sat. at my hse cc there with jy and the rest.
(yea, despite knowing there;s alot of tests this week. haha)
i think he teach quite good la.
strict but patient.
and i was so motivated to work hard and brush up on my bball skills you know.
but i guess it;s too late to do anything now huh.
unless you wan me to sacrifice my sch work.
which is a like a big nono cause my results sucks like you know what.
even my best 2 subjects, chem and maths and deproving like crazy.
first time in class, mdm ong actually finished going thru maths tutorials before i even complete them.
haa i think it;s like a big wake up call for me that i shld get serious with my work alr huh.
and at the rate im doing, im really afraid that i might not be able to do well for my coming common tests.

anws a levels results would be released next week i think.
i seriously dont know how i would react seeing _____.
hahaha yea, i know i can never run away from it.
but...
.....

ah nevermind. i think i shld just go and slp now.
and pretend that nth has happened.

sorry

想要找回来自己的节拍

2008-02-16T23:54:00.003+08:00

haa class deco photos.
so sry bout the first pic.
couldnt be bothered to rotate the photo la.
cause i only realised it after i uploaded them.
anw it's the same la haha

and here are the photos of ms kelly chong's dogs.
quite cute right haa
but a lil too hairy huh.

and yea we had our dinner there too.
left there at about 10pm.
haa kinda enjoyed myself la
especially the cooking part.
and of cause, it was nice chatting with ms chong la.
bout our class and the school.
didnt know she actually knew quite alot bout what;s going on in class.
haa quite surprised.
and she also showed us her wedding and oversea trip photos.
haa we all thought that her husband look like this hongkong artiste which i don really remember what's name alr. haha

kk i think i want go slp alr
need to wake up early tmr. bye

我该如何假装心才不隐隐作痛

2008-02-15T22:48:00.006+08:00

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know

tell you what, im fcking pissed now.
someone actually stepped on my nerves when
i was alr so tired and zzz after the training.
it was like alr 10 when i reached hm with bruises here and there cause of bball trainings.
and can you imagine your fren scolded you vulgarities cause of some trivial matters during this pt of time when you are alr so not in good mood?
so understanding of you, my fren.
i can seriously understand why ____ got so worked up cause of what you said a couple of days ago.
and i think you are a lil bit too harsh on words huh?
haa i was damn hurt if you didnt realised.
hurhur so much so that i actually teared
i just hope you would think more for the pple ard you.
and don always make things sound as thou you're the only one that is right.
and come on, if you could recall.
you did the same thing to me before on this particular saturday, when i was all prepared somemore.
and if i didnt remember wrongly.
i replied, it;s okay or smth along that line.
and you know why?
'cause you are my friend.

A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

2008-02-14T21:39:00.001+08:00

And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

ahh.. i lost my calculator
since tuesday i think.
and i only realised it today cause of the stupid bio spa.
zzz, i got the tendency to lose things very easily huh?
thank god i met annabel in sch and i managed to borrow a calculator from her.
sigh, i hope someone would tell me that
he or she has found my calculator tmr or smth.
alamak. i hate the feeling of losing things la.
especially when that something has been mine for like so long.

zzz...

the truth is you are that unkind.

2008-02-10T14:40:00.000+08:00

I know you understand
This time I'm not letting go

hello people. haa
cny holiday is going to end pretty soon.
like in ten hours time?
and guess what? i haven touch a single piece of hw. lol

cny eve.
had cny celebration in sch.
and yay. our class got second for the class deco.
hurhur, not bad la. at least our hard work did pay off huh?
and the wedding montage was really funny.
the teachers really look very different now. HAA
and after that we took photo with mr wong.
was pretty shocked that he actually volunteered to be the rat. haa
and after the celebration, sy and i headed for the town again
nv buy anything la, just walking ard for fun. lol
and trying to look out for vday gifts ba.
saw char and shi tien there haha.
it has been a long time since i last saw them. lol.
and yea, both sy and i were pretty tired that day la. cause we did shopping on tues after krangi match until 11plus.
oh talking bout that match, ahh we lost by one pt. zzz
pretty sian diao la. cause we were leading actually.
and i tot it was a sure win match. ahh.

anws after towning, i went to my grandma hse for reunion dinner.
omg. my grandma hse is far i tell you.
the 1hr journey can kill. lol
but well, i enjoyed the dinner la (:

first day of cny.
haa just practically going ard visiting and collecting angbaos.
went to mummy's side first, followed by daddy's side.
in between they came my hse too la.
cause it was my dad's bday.
and so we celebrated for him. (:
after my relatives left, we watched mean girls and had steamboat tgt as a family.
and as usual,we played mj. until 4am i think. HAA

second day.
VISITING, EATING, WATCHING, TALKING.
pretty sian huh
sigh, i wanted to watch cj7 de.
but ahh, i woke up too late la. zzz

third day was okay.
i went to hmm. a few ppl's hse.
got sy, sihui, tzewei and fel's hse.
hahaha wanted to watch kungfu dunk actually.
but fel woke up late.
and so, we didnt manage to watch that movie. zzz
don wanna go into the details of whatever that has happened in everyone's hse la.
abit troublesome and i think my entry quite long alr.
hurhur, ytd was very fun la.
and i reached hm quite late again, 12nm if im nt wrong.
it was a tiring, but happy day for me. haa

alright, that's all for the long holiday. haha
i guess the girls are enjoying themselves and collecting angbao frm mr lim now.
hurhur, im still deciding if i shld join them later.
i'll see how later.
feeling rather lethagtic now.

so much for expecting in a decision that you have already decided.

2008-02-06T15:19:00.000+08:00

i thought i'd be upset, but im not

omg, i love this shirt just too much. lol
:DDD

shopping, shopping and more shopping! (:

2008-02-03T10:41:00.000+08:00

I never thought I'd need you there when I cry

我对你有一点动心
不知结果是悲伤还是喜
有那么一点点动心一点点迟疑
害怕爱过以后还要失去

2008-02-01T23:26:00.000+08:00

i don't know whether to feel pissed, angry or pitiful

this week didnt end off that well.
had this 1hr run for training due to wet weather again.
and sh had breathing difficulties or smth after that,
so we stopped and accompanied her.
haha den after doing some dribbling, we went subway for dinner. lol, COOKIES ;D

anws, i got back my chem paper alr
it was really way below my expectation la
i was hoping for A or at least a high B.
but it turned out to be a C. zzz
i gave away 4 or 5 marks just because i read the qn wrongly.
alamak, was too stressed up i think.
and today's maths paper was horrible.
i couldnt finish the paper
was damn pek cek i tell you.
i think i wouldnt do well for this maths test,
and haa. there goes my A again.
lol, so much for trying to emphasize on my weaker subjects like bio and econs.
now it seems like my chem and maths grades are dropping tremendously.

and thurs smth rather unpleasant happened
i kinda witnessed the whole incident.
the feeling of seeing someone so close in pain, yet not knowing what to do to help him/her was terrible.
i think i cried for like 3hrs non stop that day.
cause besides feeling upset, i felt ________.
but i felt better after _________________________.
thank god that _____ is alright now (:
and from this incident, i think we really got to know who are those whom would be there for us and stuff likett.
esp during the part when i was feeling unwell,
i was really touched to know that sihui actually made the trip all the way to the canteen to get a cup of milo just for me. for someone who seldom run or hates running to actually climb up and down is like a omg kind of thing la.
and to you people,it may just worth a few cents.
but that cup of milo really meant alot to me.
it was only till then that i realised how much we care for our clique and for those whom we regard as the closer few.
but i was shocked to know some people can actually study after all that has happened
like wow, so nice of them huh?
and i totally agree wif zx la
it was bullshit for the counsellor to say that our class is united.
lol, world's greatest joke man. HAA
the class deco thing. and thurs incident.
just goes to show how "nice" some ppl were. haa.
and these ppl are really disappointing.

sometimes i wonder what lies ahead..

2008-01-30T20:39:00.000+08:00

you know it comforts me to know that you are there still in the midst of everything

ughh. super shagged.
woke up damn early today. hmm 530am?
haa, the last time i woke up so early was like 3yrs back?
when i had to go for morning runs every mon and wed. lol
went to sch early today to continue for class deco.
and as expected, very few turned up today.
haha whatever la.
was alr very pissed off cause of some irresponsible ppl.
and to think that my tutor actually did nth about it after we feedback to him makes me boil i tell you.
if you are really so busy being involved in that thing
den in the first place why fight so hard to get the position of being the class _______.
when you're not even there to help out for the past 3 days.
and our poor michelle actually spent 3days staying until 9pm to draw the jerry.
i seriously think you go reflect upon urself or smth.
and pls stop making bloody awful remarks bout my friends.
like wtf, if nth nice can come out from ur mouth, den shut up would you?

anws, there;s another someone whom i cant stand too.
had bball training just now,
heard from sh that there;s this girl who wrote in her blog, saying that she's so pissed off cause sy and i bot the same pencil case as her
damn sounds childish can
zzz, who wants to copy you la.
lame shit. you think you some kind of superstar huh?

and today _____ cried.
i seriously dono how to go about consoling her.
sigh i guess she shld just give herself some time to think through stuff & to sort things out.
and hopefully things would turn out for the btr by then.

well, i cried today too.
but it was because i got hit by a ball.
it was stupid to cry la.
but i guess i was too tired to even hold back my tears
cause my back hurts quite alot just now.

anws, i just did the gp ppt.
and i think ting is doing the other part now ba.
very tiring i tell you. haa
and gp. was another thing i quite zzz about.
oh well, forget it la.

sighh, so much for the expected and so much for thinking that this year, things would change for the better.

想做你不变的恋人　
想做你一世的牵挂

2008-01-28T22:16:00.000+08:00

and now i know

alot of things happened today.
in class and outside class.

did class deco today.
and im pretty tired now
not many people stayed back thou.
but i stayed. zzz. when i actually can go hm at 230 and watch yu le bai fen bai.

anws, chem paper was okay.
that is except for the organic chem that part.
and we had this biology quiz today.
hur, it;s either im stupid or the class did study.
cause most of them knows how to do the qns.
and to think that i actually believe that none of them studied.
zzzz.

我想离开我想离开可是我还期待

2008-01-27T11:41:00.000+08:00

I just can't seem to find a way
To leave the love behind

i've just too many things on my mind
that makes me feel so lethargic that i find it so hard to even put up a smile in school thesedays.
i'd hope that i can go hm early everyday
so that i wont have to chiong hw and do revision late at night
and only then, i would have more time to slp.

chemistry test tmr,
followed by bio and then maths.
ahh, bye people.

原谅我冷漠选择不联络

2008-01-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

I tried to give you everything
But you just gave me lies

i'm seriously wondering..
what;s wrong with me these days.
i've been feeling really down for the whole of this week.
bad stuffs kept happening ard me, and im like so zzz.
especially today, had this terrible cramp which seems to last for like million yrs.
the pain just don go away and i almost died i think.
i slept during maths tutorial haa
and after that i took the xinyi's medicine and i dozed off again during gp lesson.
all the way until ms kelly chong mentioned bout her Egypt trip.

oh well, i still went for training today.
dono why also la. just felt like going. so yup.
and i was super pissed during the training.
haa don wanna rant too much bout it la.
but it;s not cause of junliang in case you guys tot so haa
seriously speaking i don hate him or what la.
i can tell that he did put in alot of effort for this cca.
but sometimes.. what he does or say rather disappointing, hurting
and you know what la. just recall that bday celebration that incident and you will roughly know what i meant huh?

and after that we joined the j1 for mass and fun dance.
it was damn high i tell you.
i totally love that atmosphere.
cause it;s just so stress-free. haa
you can like shout all you want and blah to vent your frustrations and enjoy urself.
especially useful if you had a lousy week, just like me. lol
and you know, it has been a long time since i last danced. HAA

and anws, i passed my bio lecture test.
i got B you know. damn surprised la.
cause my 2nd qn i only wrote the genotype of the 2parents.
and as for the chi-sq and the reason part, i left it blank cause no time do. haa
so i tot i would fail. but luckily i didnt (:

kk i think i shall stop here.
going to watch dou niu alr.
bye people (:

perhaps it is me.
who have chosen to walk this path alone for now.
it is me who packed a suitcase catered for a long hiatus away from you.
it is me who has chosen this harder way round.

2008-01-17T19:19:00.000+08:00

dry up my tears and let me trust

hurhur, tmr is friday. like finally huh?
cant wait you know.
just cant wait for weekends to come.
school is tiring me out.
maybe it's the hot weather or what la.
jiu too tired to even open my mouth and talk thesedays.

and smth happened ytd or the day before.
about this sji guy. who was said to blog irresponsibly.
got to know about it from the bball girls.
and the paper is still with me.
haa i thought we shld have the freedom to blog what we want?
what's the point if you have to blog selectively and stuff like that?
and if at any pt, you are unhappy with what that was written,
you can jolly well not read it right? zzz.
and this is one reason to why i wanted to move to wordpress.
think it's safer to blog there. haha
but yes, the sji guy was wrong la, to blog that way
and to criticise neighbourhood sch girls.

anws, this is how the notice look like if you didnt happen to see it in school. HAHA

and yea, we were learning how to play softball during pe today.
was okay la.
but i was more keen to learn how to play the game itself
rather than learning how to throw and stuff.
abit boring huh? jiu throw here and there. under the hot sun somemore.

and we had our first bio pract of the yr today. LOL
sijia and i were playing with the chemicals rather than doing our practical la.
haha, cause the lesson was really very sian.
i still cant make myself like biology. haa
only if it;s as easy as chemistry.
only if..

den after that i went hm with yun zhixiang and yongshin
walked to plaza there lah.
didnt see any trains today, abit disappointing har? haha
and we cracked lot of jokes. super funny.
was teasing zhixiang about _____ all the way. like so lol

time passes really fast huh.
haha alot of things happened these days.
be it a small thing or a big one.
they made me realise alot of stuff.
sometimes when you least expect it, it stops right in front of you.
but when you're trying so hard to catch it, you just ended up wif disappointment. sigh

and whether to drop or not to drop h2 econs..
i guess i'll try to hang on first.
i'll drop when i seriously have no time for it or simply cant cope la.
cause i think i shldnt give up so easily.
yup, (:

who are you now
are you still the same
or did you change somehow?

我不想舍得　不想懂得

2008-01-12T13:02:00.000+08:00

i never saw it coming, i should have started running
a long long time ago.

haven been bloggin thesedays.
rather busy with sch work.
dont have much to update actually.
everyday jiu wake up go sch cca etc.

MONDAY AND TUESDAY
jiu normal school day.
nothing much.
just that tuesday's pe, we did dips and jumps.
and we had to carry bench on shoulder and walk for a few rounds la.
super heavy i tell you, my shoulder hurts alot now.
and i dono why, the grp of us actually still initated to run extra rounds.
so crazy. but well, it's fun to be with them la. even if it;s just running or sitting at the fitness corner and chat.
better than sitting in the classroom or listening to boring lectures.
and after that, yun sihui and i went starbucks.
chat and do abit of maths. HAA.
think j2 is liddat la, don have much time to play ard alr.
kinda miss those times when im still in J1 haha.

WEDNESDAY
had this com election thing, whatever you call it la.
so lame can, we wasted for like more than an hr choosing those positions
and im still not that satisfied wif the current class com.
but oh well, im glad that i finally get rid of the welfare rep that post.
hurhur, thank god.

and wtf, i was so pissed cause of the wed's training
the celebration was so horrible can i tell you.
we went thru so much effort,
just to get the cakes for them.
purposely go until bbp buy for them when we can actually anyhow buy from the cake shop beside bubbletea shop( which is like opp our school only?)
den we no time eat, so just go mac and grab smth.
hao xin see those balloons, wan go get for them
and when we actually wrote nice stuff for them on the balloons.
some people see also nv see den throw on the floor.
haa. so nice of you huh?

i think we shld seriously just buy one cake,
or just don buy at all.
i know you maybe reading this, but i don care.
cause i didnt make up anything
and i think you shld read it.
tell you what, i hate being unappreciated.
and that's probably why i don wanna be class welfare rep anymore.
it makes me so worn out, and in the end, what do i get in return? haa.

and i know, the previous few entries, i mentioned bout going trainings for the sake of friends and that bit of commitment and passion or smth liddat.
excuse me, at least i didnt go just for the attendance or what.
and i swear i did put it effort during training.
you mo mo your liang xin,
have you ever see me anyhow run your suicide runs etc?
cause i know my technical skills sucks,
so for physical training, if i can run, or if i had the energy to do so, i would try to run faster.
and have you see me pon ur training like nobody's business?
tell you what, i think the grp of us are like the only few that comes for most of the trainings.
ahh, whatever la. so zzzz.

THURSDAY
same, jiu normal school and i think thurs suck most
cause lesson ends at 4pm with those super long lessons that i dislike like dono what.
but at least thurs pe was ok, we had javelin lesson.
not bad la, at least we learnt smth? haa.

FRIDAY
and ytd, alamak.
i screwed up my bio lecture test i think.
was super nervous cause tzewei do very fast
and i so scared i cannot finish.
ya den the 3rd cross i did wrongly, so redo so wasted alot of time la.
alamak, don wan say liao think wont do well jiu dui le. zzz.

school alr started for like a week or more.
and im still not getting used to the workload.
this weekend got alot of hw sia.
h2 econs. sigh.. tell me, should i continue wif 4H2..
when i see those h1 econs ppl, i kinda envy them.
cause they not so stress, more time to revise and do hw.
plus most of them, their cca not as hectic as mine.
can go hm at 5plus de. so they got all their time to do what they want.
but me? after training,im like super tired.
all i wan is to sleep. yea sleep..

for who am i wasting time for?
maybe im just the stubborn little girl
who doesnt wanna let go of things which once belongs to her.
i don wanna let go especially after going thru so much.
so even if it kills me
i'll do it.

im tired, yes i really am.
my problems all seem so overwhelming.
and im losing all the hope.

2008-01-05T19:10:00.000+08:00

'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

i think school didnt start off well for me.
was rather upset upon seeing the new timetable.
my favourite mrs annie loh not my pe teacher alr.
zzz,im no longer looking forward to pe anymore.
and i guess this yr pe would be a tough one.

sigh i don quite like my hmm. econs class.
hurhur, maybe im not still getting used to the new teacher and classmates la.
was pretty demoralising, upset, ahh whatever you call it.
from a big grp of about 18 people taking 4h2s, now became 8.
it was 16 after minus-ing ronghui&rongxian,
den after promos jiu minus 7 people cause of the 5that drop h2 econs to h1 and the 2 who retained.
and now felicia wants to drop to h1 econs cause h2econs lessons got like about 2.5hrs more than h1econs per week.
hurhur, so now we only had 8 people.
how pathetic. lol

and i just realised my birthday falls on the first day of common test.
right after the one week holiday.
HAA wonderful.
i seriously cant imagine how it would be like to celebrate my 18th birthday with my notes and tutorials. lol
very sad la, i guess this yr's bday wouldnt be as great or as surprising as the previous yr.

had pretty loads of gossipings and fun during training thesedays.
haha, sometimes i wish my bball team were my classmates.
cause besides my pae clique, they're the next closest to me.
especially the bball clique.
you would be surprised how close we are despite knowing each other for just mths only.
it;s really not easy to find friends that you can hit off so well easily
and im glad i found them, seriously (:

today as usual, had all the boring lessons.
and i brought along my spongebob bag. HAA
cute okay. u people better agree. rofl.
seriously, i still cant figure out why all of them bought spongebob related stuff back from china.
i look like i like spongebob alot huh? lol
i prefer piglets, by alot more i think.
but well, jiu thanks alot (:

ohh. anws i urmm. got caught for short skirt today again.
HAA, i was pretty shocked.
cause i pulled my skirt until so long alr.
and i told yun, " heh heh, my skirt so long wont get caught liao HAHAHA!"
den after that i saw the pe teacher standing right beside me asking, "girl, what's ur name?" zzz.

and this morning, i was down on fever.
i kinda knew it alr la, cause i wasnt feeling well ytd night.
had terrible sore throat and flu after getting caught in the rain.
plus i think i have been slping late at night.
no enough sleep i think.
HAA, what to do, i need to chiong hw you see. lol
but i think im okay alr, feeling much better now
so yup (:

多少次以为找到了幸福
却发现一开始就是个错误

2008-01-01T11:08:00.000+08:00

freestyle ;)

hurhur, ytd had trainings.
yea,very hot like it always do.
and yun and i headed to town after going to coffeeshop with sh dilys for a drink.
we were the first to reach la, like wow. first time.
so we went to bibibaba at shaw centre to buy uniform.
wanted to get a skirt cause cbt kop my skirt for like one yr
and he has nv return. haha.
den jiu shunbian help fel goh buy her blouse also.
hahaha the queue was super long. waited for ages. lol.

den after that we went to meet uh joyce jj ting and fel ang
and after yun, joyce and jj went off,
i went to meet jon.
okay. so i spent my last day of 2007 in town.
didnt stay for countdown la. crazy.
super crowded, later go hm bu fang bian.
yep jiu reached hm like 11 or slightly before that?
and i was alr very tired.
training is draining all my energy away, rofl
so i 12plus jiu slp le. lol.

and yea, as usual at the start of every yr,
i would come up with new yr resolutions.
so here it goes. HAA

don be late for school anymore
no sleeping during lectures and tutorials, esp for bio and econs.
don pon school/lessons.
to study really hard for all papers
don copy homework bindly.
don do things last minute.
eat more healthily, exercise more and slp early.
to keep in contact with all my friends ( if possible)
to cut down on expenses and not ask for extra allowance.
save money. save loads of money. lol
to be even nicer to my family members, and shower more love on them HAA
and also spend more time with them
to be less impulsive and sentimental, meaning to do things in a more rational way.
no more lies, even thou they may be white lies.
stop using phone and com so often
stop watching dramas on youtube after dou niu ended
lesser mood swings
and cry lesser.
to get the darn gold for napfa. all thanks to sbj for that silver award last yr huh? i was so close to getting gold can. just one more cm jiu get C for sbj liao. and yeah, im aiming for 28/30 this time round. hurhur.
grow taller. and hit 160 by the end of this yr. LOL, i know it;s difficult, but im still willing to try. HAA
to be less tan/black. haha. i dont know how to go about doing so. but i will go figure it out somehow. lol
to know some people ard me better.
and of cause, to stay happy ;DD

让我再相信再相信爱和情
不畏曾经伤心对爱一生怀疑

2007-12-30T21:43:00.000+08:00

two times the damage, double the trauma, twice the hurt ):

okay, i think this layout looks btr.
more colourful and simple.
and oh did you realise i bold the word show?
HAHAHA. cause i love show luo.
omg. it all started with his yu le bai fen bai and his current album wu suo bu zai.
i love him more than spongebob loves his squarepants you know!
he;s the reason that makes me a very good girl.
i every day reach hm by 5pm to watch his show, hoho.
but i think last tym de yu le bai fen bai more entertaining,
cause got 驚驚, and all the super lame jokes. rofl
go see the show on youtube if you wan ba,
just type 驚驚冷笑話 will do i think.
highly recommended! lol :DD

and oh. so sry for not updating.
cause i really dono why to blog about.
too many things happened and i really dono what to say.
esp the part when junliang got so pissed off cause no one appear for training on wed.
i think i was at fault too.
so much for trying to pon trainings and all.
very wrong i know, but i couldnt help it.
there're just too many reasons that makes going training hard for me.
i guess you guys wouldnt understand how it feels.
cause going trainings means,

lesser time to slp, cause bball training starts at 830am
lesser time to study. cause we're having trainings thrice a week. and you know, after trainings, you will get so tired that you just feel like jumping onto the bed and slp. that's y im always so tired so sian after training. lol
and of cause, become more tanned. haha im like super black now? don be shock when sch reopens. HAA
more injuries, cause mm not careful? it always happens for me la. all the cuts and falling down. lol
no more long nails. HAA yea, i used to have long nails and i like my long nails. but now, must cut like so super short? hur.
more naggings from mummy. cause she doesnt like the idea of me joining bball. but, HAHA i still joined lol jiu cause i signed up. cause of that commitment. cause of friends..

and yea, thou it may sounds wrong.
but i don deny that the reason that makes me going on are friends.
and that bit of commitment and passion for bball.
all the setbacks and conflicts are making me demoralised.
winning seems impossible for us.
i was taught to believe, to work fast, work hard, work smart way back during sec2.
that was when i was in athletics.
yes that cca gave me the kind of satisfaction esp after every race.
it makes you feel that all the trainings were worthwhile.
but now hurhhur. don say bball skills la.
my stamina and speed like deprove so much alr.
say i was from athletics, i think no one would believe. lol
i didnt know bball was just a difficult sports until i joined bball,
HAA during secondary time, i used to see the guys play.
and it has never occur to me that dribbling and stuff is difficult.
lol, i guess it;s human nature to belittle tasks that you have/are not handling on your own.

and before i forget.
i wanna thank those pple who have been there for me.
esp when i go boohoohoo. lol
im not going to name anyone.
you guys shld know who you;re (:
and yes without you people. i think i would die. haha

okay let me recall what happened during yr 2007,
firstly. it;s these wonderful bunch of people.
they really made pae a wonderful time for me <3

and not to forget, my pae/jae og.
my ogls. and og mates.
haha. yea.

and to you: thou things are no longer the same,im still thankful for all that you;ve done. so sorry for being so implusive and childish at times. afterall you have been the one there for me and i really appreciate the kind of care and concern you gave me. and also all the encouragements you said when you know i failed my papers. if again, i would still want to come pj and know you. just wanna let you know, i;ve nv regret knowing after all that has happened. and yes all the best to you (:

yes i think this one yr in pj has definitely force me grow up.
to handle things in the most rational way
and of cause not to act on impluse.
haha, if not for my high tolerance level, i would have fed up long ago cause of this _l_ss.
HAA fill in the blanks on your own. lol.
and i wanna apologise to this someone from my class.
hmm, sry for being so uh.. i dono how to say la.
jiu sry for not being understanding and stuff.
i know it doesnt help anymore
but at least i wanna let you know im really really sry.
hopefully 2008 would be btr for you with a different bunch of friends (:
im tryin not to make it so obvious.
jiu hope you know who you are ba.

yep as you can see,
huishan has been reflecting alot these days lol.
it always happen la. i like to think alot
hurhur, and today is the last sunday of the yr.
i didnt do much today.
jiu do some packing and cleaning up
and i saw alot of old letters that i received from friends since primary sch.
YAH i keep alot of old stuff. my room can become a mini musesum or smth liddat alr.
was pretty sad when i saw those letters la.
some of which were from those friends whom we don even contact alr. sad huh?

talking bout this, i was pretty upset.
this christmas sucks like hell, yes im serious.
i was expecting something, someone, whatever.
but it was grrr. utterly disappointing.
ohwells, im still thankful for those who messaged, sent cards or gave me presents la.
thanks alot. was quite surprised to receive msges from people whom i seldom talk to alr.
yea, guess we were too busy or smth liddat?
i dono, but i still miss you people.
miss those times we go hm tgt.
study tgt (:

haha, i think i shldnt continue anymore.
ohhyahh i painted my hse.
no more light green.
the wall is now blue in colour. HAHA
i got help daddy to paint okay.
super tiring. HAA

okays not early liao.
need to go sleep le, tmr got training.
zzz. training on the last day of the yr.
so memorable huh?
okok, btr not talk anything bad bout trainings.
i read from sh's blog that junliang actually does blog hopping.
like omg. if he ever reads my blog den im like gg to die?
ohh. maybe that;s y he has been so mean to me.
made me run 4.5km cause i was late for trainings.
and somemore so fierce, scold me scold until i cried several times. lol.

okay, long entry sia.
good nights! (:

曾握著就能感受你比我難過..

2007-12-22T09:33:00.000+08:00

i'm close to tears
'cause you;re only almost here

HAHA, photos again.
i woke up quite early today to make tangyuan with my ahma.
and yea, i just finished one bowl of it ;DD

haven been blogging for a long time.
jiu whole week watch tv, play games and go out la.
mm, i;ve been watching yu le bai fen bai, dou niu, kinship II, the golden path etc.
nth to update also. cause didnt go for training for the entire week.
monday, i not feeling well, so yup, overslept accidently.
as for wed and fri's training, junliang cancelled it. HAA (like oh yes!)
;DDD

and yea, i went to cut my hair last week.
like omg la. i don like my current hairstyle lol.
think i'll go cut again, maybe after christmas? HAA.

oh whatever,
i off to cheenatown to meet fel ting and joyce now.
yay, im gg S-H-O-P-P-I-N-G!
;DD

2007-12-10T14:01:00.000+08:00

just bear in mind that afterall people change with time
and we cannot assume them to stay the same.

just finished watching my dou niu ep4.
HAA. really hen hao kan. lol
mike;s damn shuai la,
and i think this show is much btr than his exchange love(huan huan ai).
go watch all the behind the scenes part.
and you will realise he;s super lame and funny. HAA.

kays, enough of that.
lets talk bout.. mm. yesterday. haha
went out with jj zx fel and sy.
we went cycling at pasir ris.
for like 2hours? in the rain somemore.
and before that, we went to play arcade.

HAHA. den after that, sy and i went to escape.
hurhur, really nt scary la the rides.
our first ride was inverter and followed by the umm.
whats that called huh?
mm. got one big slide and one small slide de.
den u sit inside this boat one. lol.
whatever la, it got me all wet sia. HAA
but that wasnt the most fun part.
the most fun part was the haunted hse.
scare me out of the shit luh.
it was horrible can, the room soooo dark.
i don rem anything le lar,
i only know i ran really fast.
cause i very scared. lol.

and after that the 5of us went to meet up with tzewei for dinner.
HAHA. we went to tampines's seoul garden to eat.
ate until very full jiu dui le la
den after that we went to umm. arcade again?
HAHA. yeayea, that's all.
then after that sy and i took a taxi home.
and i reached hm at about 11plus HAA.

kk, shall blog next tym.
going for a swim later with sy, ting and fel.
gonna put alot of sunblock.
hurhur, if nt later sunburn again.
cause that tym training sunburnt still haven ok yet lah.
zzz there's still training tmr ):

-
char: umm, when's the chalet uh? next week?
dilys: yep, thanks thanks! (:

人生的得失不重要
最重要的是大家在一起..

2007-12-06T22:13:00.000+08:00

My heart was already dead.

i donno if i was just thinking too much
but i think i did better learn to let go
rather than being assurred about you.

HAA, what hurts more than just lies?
tell you what, you hurt me inside out.

2007-12-04T00:54:00.000+08:00

I must be strong, and carry on,
Cause I know I don't belong.

have been staying at home and watching tv thesedays.
didnt do much of revision.
was pretty lazy and pissed off by some stuff.
but im feeling btr alr!
after talking to chan tze wei.
he's pretty good at consoling pple ya?
next tym sad can go find him, strongly recommended! HAA
i went to bp plaza ytd with daddy
and we rent horror shows to watch.
the haunted school and the letters of death.
but very scary thou, and not really exciting.
cause my dad and mom actually dozed off while watching. lol
and the story plots were mainly bout retribution and revenge la, lame uh?
till now i still don understand how come yat man and goh keung died.
and after watching the letters of death, i dreamt of myself receiving that letter too.
so scary can! must complete the hangman thingie in 9days, copy and send the letter to 29 pple.
omg if you really survived, which is quite impossible,
wouldnt you feel guilty for harming that 29PPLE?
HAA, just a qn to ponder. random la.

and this morning, we did gardening tgt. lol

i dono what plant is this, but pretty cute eh?

beautiful (:

my dad planted these 3 plants. really small la, donno will survive not.

this plant is really tall, taller den me. HAA!

another tall plant la. zzz

moving the plant to its new home.

and yep, it's done. LOL

rwars. i ate its leaves before.
used to cure cough or what i think.
taste horrible, serious.

pretty right?

hurhur. this is money plant. see before?

bags of fallen leaves and stuff.

fa cai shu so smth liddat? forgot the name liao.

special looking flower. dont you think so? HAA

JACK FRUIT! :]

another type of periwinkle if im not wrong.

cactus.

HAA i donno what fruit is this, lol.

yupp that's all la, haha.
mm, theres 07 graduation night later on.
i wonder how it would be like for us next yr.
so looking forward to next yr,
cant wait for a lvls to end. LOL
and i miss my clique soooo much la.
seriously hope that everyone can make it for the class outing.
cause it would probably be the last one alr. HAA.

take a step forward then back.

2007-12-02T08:21:00.000+08:00

this is so ridiculous uh?
for one moment you're with this person?
and later you realised this person was having fun with the other.
this is just so crap can.

i had thought i would fight all the way for what i love.
but it turn out the other way round.
haha. you made me realise something that makes me disappointed, pissed off, sad, whatever.
thanks ah? i couldnt sleep ytd night cause of ___________.
there are like so many things to do
and yet im here not knowing what to do.
my mind is tired from all the thinking.
so much so that im actually having insomnia at night.
crap, what do i really want?

tell me, is it wrong to hope?
but in the first place,i asked for it.
everything must draw to a close.
and yep, i think i made up my mind

has it ever been real before?
and what exactly went wrong?

2007-11-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

more photos.

and today, i went to study with the class pple.

hurhur, felicia ang ps me.

she said she overslept.

and i also overslept actually.

but i didnt ps them la. cause jj and ys alr reached liao.

i late for bout an hour? LOL. sorry uh :]

these few nights always cant slp.

hurhur,i lie on the bed for like hours can.

i think i count mehmeh count until a thousand plus liao. HAHA

den yup, didnt do much la.

jiu do a few maths qns den pek cek alr.

cause i seems to forget everything le. lol.

and after tat we met up with sy to play bb.

play until 9pm liddat den go home.

had a nice chat with them also.

and i know all their secrets omg! HAAAAAA.

k, think i nid to start revising.

my bio and econs suck like dono wad.

and i promised to study hard if i managed to promote and maintain 4H2s.

so yup, will be staying at home these few days to STUDY i guess.

and to plan class outing and stuff.

hurhur, it's horrible to be a welfare rep. LOL

yup. so bye (:

- -

我想这是上天的安排

你让我找到幸福的所在

2007-11-29T21:50:00.000+08:00

hurhur went orchard with the girls ytd.
and we took loads of photos.
i'll upload some la.
quite impossible to upload everything.
cause my com quite lag now.lol

we met up at cine at 2pm i think.
felicia and i tot we were the latest.
but hoho, we turned put to be the first. LOL
and that funny girl, dilys, actually didnt bring her phone out
omg. we were thinking of ways to contact her la.
heng she got meet justina hahhaa.
and it was raining really heavily, so we were stuck in cine for hours.
terrible can? of all places we got stuck at cine.
if at far east still okay la. there got alot of things to buy.
can shop for quite some time.

and yep. we went to heeren after the rain gets smaller
cause shuhui wanna see her ex? lol.
hahaha and yup, we saw chen li ping and some superstar ppl there.
got diya and some others.
hurhur, everytime go out with them also see stars lol.

den after that we went to metro paragon. cause we wanna see if annabel still doing her shift.
but ya she went off alr. so we go take photo at the gingerbreadman hse. HAA
nice. got time den upload that pic
cause i lazy scan the photo. lol

and after that we went far east or smth. yep then walked ard to take photos. hahaha. didnt buy anything that day. the whole day we practically talk and eat. haha, enjoy gossiping with them. damn funny la they. all the jokes and stuff. HAA!

jiu walk ard and then we left at 8plus la.
took 190 home with felicia :D

photos (:

at paragon's toilet. HAHA

and yep. we went to eat subway for dinner.
really full sia their bread so long.
hurhur, and their cookies really yummy ;DD

and lastly,

with felicia! :]

HAHAHA. and yea, felicia fell sick cause of ytd
so today training only got 5pple.
haha, and shinyun is back with us alr. (:
the grp of them came back from beijing on tues night lol.
and yupp, i took a video of magnus and junliang just now.
super lame la them, play those childish games. HAA.
gonna upload to youtube one day, so that i can threaten them. hoho

ohya shinyun bot me a crown belt and a spongebob boxer from beijing.
LOL. thanks ya? (:
have been looking for that belt for quite some time.

kays, that's all.
want go slp alr.
tomo going out again.
good nights (:

through it all, i made my mistakes.
i stumble and fall,
but I mean these words.

i want you to know, with everything I won't let this go.
these words are my heart and soul,
i hold on to this moment you know.
cause I'd bleed my heart out to show,
that I won't let go.

2007-11-28T00:08:00.000+08:00

and all i can do, is hope and pray.

2007-11-27T00:58:00.001+08:00

都是你让我贪图渴望过去的甜蜜
原谅你容许你在最后还是缺席

2007-11-26T12:03:00.000+08:00

a new layout. very simple one thou.
lazy go find la. the girls said they cannot view my old layout so yup.
decided to change hahaha.
had dinner with them just now.
lol. and we saw this little girl.
she so cute la. keep laughing. lolss.

mm don wanna blog bout training la.
shang xing shi. sorry to those who were there.
hope i didnt scare you pple la.
was really sian diao. dono why the ball so bu ting hua also.
so yup. paiseh ah lolss.

and yea, ytd i had metro sif again.
hurhur, got this guy. said something really funny, "you give me your number, i donate 5dollars."
so lame la. sengkang ppl really weird and stingy.
hur, i shld have given him the number, 999. lolss.
and i left the stupid rose he made on the table.
quite nice looking la the rose. but you know la. don wan lead ppl on.
so yup.i left it there.
and the 3 of us couldnt stand the duty manager on shift that day.
don like the way she talks la. jiu don like. haa

and after that we went shopping.
lolss. bot quite alot of stuff la
den went back to the donation booth see see, and i kop a flower balloon there.
it's made by tady. really very pretty la the flower.lol.
and after that fel went off to take train.
so sijia and i took bus 161 to causeway.
den shunbian go see the 2 horrible pigs at metro.
they can make really nice flowers la.
got tym den i upload the photos. lol.

and after tat, sijia and i go eat dinner at sakae sushi.
very full la. very long nv eat sushi liao.
the last tym i ate was with shinyun i think.
got 2weeks le. lolss. and after eating, the both of us jiu shop ard and chat lo.
i didnt know sijia can speak jap la. so cool sia.
i wan learn also! lol. and yea, that day i spent bout 100bucks i think. lol.
but i was happy la. hahahah (:

kkay, shall stop here today.
bye people.

you disappoint me again and again.

2007-11-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

with your smile so warm

seriously very tired today.
had cip at metro sengkang.
don really enjoy my stay there la.
the pple there really stingy.
ask them for donation, some look also don wan look at you.
hurhur, got some. see us at the exit asking for donation, den turn like almost 180 degrees back into metro store again, pretending that they forgot to buy something and they wanna go back take or what la.
haha, still got one. put 10cents just to get the charity bear. walked away le. den come back after 5mins, put another 10cents again, looking at me and expecting another bear. lol.
whatever la. not gonna think so much bout it hahha
and yep. we went shopping after zhan hong tady and shihui came to take over.
den sijia left earlier cause she got smth on at night.
while fel and i went over to metro paragon after that :]
i think i still love that metro store more. much much more.
there de pple a thousand times better and selfless can.
saw a few familiar faces there and yep.
we went to meet up with sihui they all for dinner.
cause they having their cip at paragon
hahaha glad that she's back from obs.
heh heh. she said she got miss me. lol.
so after the dinner, me and felicia went to plaza singapura that bus stop to take bus home.

sighh, tomo still must go bac sengkang for cip.
really dislike the place there la.
tomo will be my last tym there i swear.
must change so many times la the bus, so troublesome.

and after metro sif, den got bb training again.
omg la. i think i see bb longer than i see my parents.
tuesdays also got bball loh. grah...
i wonder when's the last bball practice for the yr la. lolss.
but well, at least i know how to do lay up more swiftly.
and throw 3pointers that goes chop! alr. HAHAHA.
last tym always air or what de. even if it went in, it's always by luck one la. lol.
i guess im getting more used to bball le la. and i like training more.
but studies still my main priority la.
and you know, it has always been. (:

haha, thou i don really enjoy doing cip at sengkang,
but i still happy today.
dono ask me why,
jiu happy la ;DD

anw. i gtg liao.
tomo must wake up by 730am.
good nights!

with all i've got (:

2007-11-22T22:07:00.000+08:00

hmm.

went to causeway lib with yongshin and zhixiang today
hurhur. that stupid zhixiang ask me DON late.
den he late for one hour plus.
so me and yongshin walked around doing nth.
den after that go lib do hw. lol.
he said i look paiseh la.
hahaha. obviously. me and him not tat close.
den very weird ma. lolss.
ya so when zhixiang came, i asked him buy food la.
super hungry. hurhur.
so for the 4hours, we only did a few maths qns la.
most of the time we were talking loh.
hurhur yongshin very dirty la.
he've got all kinds of dirty and lame jokes. haha
and yup, after that i went to meet felicia goh for bball training.

today's training was okay.
i only did 30push ups as punishment.
quite lucky eh? cause tuesday i ran 4.5km, did 105 inclinced, 60 sit ups and 45 push ups.
i was cursing junliang like dono what.
haha but it was useful la
just take it as a form of exercising lo :]
and yea, i've cut my long nails.
cause of bball. if not hold ball and dribbling very xin ku.
lol. big sacrifice leh. i decide very long den cut one la. zzz.
grow until so long liao. den paint until nice nice le. HAHA.

and yepp, i went swimming with felicia ang ytd
thou my muscle aches alot la.
cause like alr promised her le.
wanted to ask jj if he want go gym since me and fel gg there for a swim
but after tue's training, i decided not to la.
the 4.5km almost killed me alr.
had this terrible headache after training.
and i couldnt sleep at all la.
i think i lie on my bed for like 4hours plus?
super pissed off. so i decided to message pple to chat loh.
and yup, chatted until i managed to doze off. lol ;D

ahhh. i miss shinyun they all.
half of the clique 6 gone. hurhur.
hope they quickly come back. and the obs pple also.
den can hav another class outing.
kkays. i'll stop here.
byebye.

and i miss you too (:

2007-11-17T17:10:00.000+08:00

一起长大的约定　那样真心　与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清　你是友情　还是错过的爱情

(:

2007-11-16T23:43:00.000+08:00

hurhur a whole bunch of my classmates are gg over to beijing in a few days time.
kinda regret for not going for the interview.
if not i could have join them for the trip.
and the rest are gg for obs too.
yupp so i'll be alone!
omg. hahaha.

yep, i just finished the work shadowing program at metro paragon.
i don deny it was quite boring there.
but ya, i've learnt quite alot of stuff and knew more people of the older age.
hahaha the staff quite friendly la but only the majority.

and yup this is picture at the customer service counter.
the rest don think im allowed to put here.
but ya, we went to the office, general store room etc.
know more bout how they transfer goods, more on pricetags etc.
overall quite fun there. hurhur.
can consider going bac there to work part time after a lvls ;DD
too bad im not assigned to paragon for the "metro for children" event.
if not can go back see them again.
shouldnt have volunteered to go sengkang la. zzz.
now come to think of it. really very far har? -.-

oh and i went for today's training.
hur nothing much. jiu train like normal lo.
training was never enjoyable and fun la.
i dono la, all these trainings made me dislike bball even more.
all the scoldings and stuff. hur, making me feel so scared to make any mistake.
i'd rather study bio or what la.
i think studying bio also much easier den all those technical trainings.
3days a week, and after each training, im more tired, more unhappy, more black(as in very tanned). sigghh. maybe i should consider quitting.
den focus on my studies next yr.

ohya talking bout studies.
i think i was really lucky.
i got promoted despite getting that kind horrendous results.
and i actually manage to maintain my 4H2s too.
i must be really lucky that day la.
you wouldnt wan to know how lousy my results were for promos.
i felt like killing myself when i got back the results la.
and i cried like dono what that day.
it was my first time. getting sooooo many Us. hah
yupp, over le la. i'll work really hard next yr
and make sure i get A for BIOLOGY
hahahahaha.

oh and today i went cine for lunch with the bball girls.
we saw the campus superstars there.
uh got shawn guohao benjamin and blah la. forget le.
hur and after that we went to play pool and go for training le la. zzz.
kkays, time to sleep liao.
im tired.
byebye! and take care people ;D

2007-11-07T10:06:00.001+08:00

人生总有许多巧合，两条平行线也可能会有交汇的一天。
人生总有许多意外，握在手里面的风筝也会突然断了线。
在这个熟悉又陌生的城市中，无助地寻找一个陌生又熟悉的身影。

昨日的悲伤，我已遗忘
可以遗忘的，都不再重要了..

2007-10-27T19:06:00.001+08:00

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.

(:

2007-10-12T22:23:00.000+08:00

ha. im getting quite sian of trainings these days.
the past 2 trainings were horrible.
i felt more like an athlete rather than a bballer.
the PT part is driving me nuts.
it feels like as thou im running for my life or smth.
and at the rate im going, i think i will die even before the next match comes.
haha. and i seriously don like the last part of training today.
esp the way my coach talks.
very discouraging eh? and theres no point doing all the talk since you are nt going thru what we went thru just now.
it's seriously not fair la.
how can you expect us to like do lay up when we outside the red colour area la.
it's not our fault that the ball was passed to us when we haven even enter the red colour area ma. and you some more say cannot dribble there.
den shoot wad shit lar. diao.
and when we are doing pt, you all actually just sit there and talk.
like so diao, that's like so easy can.
i might as well just go initiate a new cca.
perhaps track and field. since i was previously from css track and field during lower sec
and my sch was first for girls division.
den i'll get really good testimonal just by sitting there and see pple run. ha.

i dont deny that some of your put in effort to teach at times.
but not all. you cant possibly want us to do all the running when you all just sit there and kiao ka/do nth. and do anything still nvm.
still laugh at our mistakes some more. zzz.
it's seriously not funny to laugh at other pple's weakness la.
imagine i laugh at you all de results.
you tell me how you all will feel?
i mean bball is just like studies.
not everytime u study will do well wad.
similarly, you practice doesnt mean will perform well on that day ma.
sometimes really have depend on luck and mood wad. zzz.
be a lil more understanding can?
you got ur emo days. we also got.
just that we always try not to show it in school and trainings.
and i think it would be better if you can say something nicer whenever we see each other in sch.
it wont kill right?

zzz. enough of all that.
sigh i haven started on op yet. hahaha.
hopefully we can finish everything on monday itself ba.
one more week and we can collect our promos paper le.
kinda scary. but i did rather they return it now.
since they alr finished marking le.
very weird right, we are gg thru the promos answers when we haven even get back our scripts. it's like, we will be wondering whether we did the qns correctly instead of paying attention to what the lecturer says la. and in this way, it isnt beneficial right? also dono we which qn wrong and where wrong, how to correct ourselves. diao.

aiya. think i'll go get a slp or smth.
im really tired. byebye.

i know i'm usually hanging on,
i used to hate to see you go.
but this time, its different.
i don't even feel the distance..

2007-10-04T22:48:00.000+08:00

Ill be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before
First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance

cause you reminds me of him.
someone whom i've been trying so hard to forget.

2007-10-04T22:10:00.000+08:00

i guess i have been thinking alot these days
so sorry about what had happened just now.
i really had a wonderful time today.
thanks alot (:

2007-09-16T10:43:00.000+08:00

为了梦想出击使你笑容不离 ;DD

2007-09-07T20:59:00.001+08:00

我没有你想像中那么坚强
我只是擅长用微笑去伪装,不是吗.

我们都是一样
相信永远不远
但坚持却有点难
就让记忆中的爱慢慢烧
烧痛了我们就逃

2007-09-04T20:01:00.000+08:00

because you live there's a reason why
i carry on when I lose the fight
i want to give what you've given me always

because you live and breathe
because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
because you live, my world has twice as many stars in the sky

2007-09-03T15:46:00.000+08:00

ha. wonderful.

you can revisit your memories,
but don't even try to hold on to the hope that they will be back.
because what's gone is gone.
there's nothing to be too upset about,
unless you haven't lived it well.

so just let go and move on.

be a little more understanding, would you?

2007-09-01T22:59:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA

pretty tired these days.
because of the written report lar.

plus the bmtc trip and class tee thingie.

finally the class tee is done.

im seriously thinking of quitting as a welfare rep.

if wong is not appointing a assistance welfare rep.

being welfare rep is seriously tiring la.

and it's worse den being a CM or ACM.

seriously, i did rather be cm or acm if im allowed to choose.

hai, and the pw is taking up dang loads of time.

i've been sleeping at 2am since monday.
hah. and worse still, i find that all my time spent on pw isnt worthwhile.

so ya, to those juniors out there.

do think twice b4 picking Jc course in future.

and as expected, my sept holi is indeed packed with make up lessons

i wonder if there's time for me to revise for promos.

which is like 20more days away.

but it looks like there's nth much i can do

to pull up my bio results.

esp when im still having this terrible cough.

it's serious to the extent that i haven been taking cold drinks for very long time.

as you can see, this is my 4th bottle alr.
and im so sick of taking cough syrup.

sigh and just this week,
i;ve learnt a lot of things, not so much of technical stuff,
but more of the emotional part.
and i've also discovered alot more things about myself.

mm. i guess i shall go sleep now.
feeling rather tired alr.
byebye.

2007-08-20T18:58:00.000+08:00

sian 1/2, im feeling rather lethargic now
and the thought that i need to start revising bio during sept holi makes it even worse. i've spent the weekend going out and settling class tee stuff lar.
which meant that i haven do any hw yet.
promos in just ard the corner.
and i can foresee a september holiday packed with loads of remedial lessons. zzz.

anw im getting rather pissed off with some people these days.
hah didnt know they could be so self-centered.
i mean friends shld help each other and stuff rightt,
what's the point of you doing well, while having the rest doing badly.
is that really want you want?
take the case of chem spa for example.
after getting the skill D model ans from the other classes,
we helped the rest to photocopy and not just sharing it among our own clique right.
and we all know that by helping others, our own results maybe affected.
but wouldnt you be happier if all ur friends get good grades too?
i mean we shld think more for the rest,
and not just doing things for our own benefit.

seriously, i've totally changed my impression of some people.
and they really ought to change in order to get the same kind of respect they wan from the rest. people wont talk about you if u are not in the wrong or doing things that they find it unacceptable. if you dont feel good when people tok about you.
then the more you shldnt be toking about them behind their backs.
if in any way they offended you etc,
i think it better that you tok to them rather than giving the "i cant be bothered" look. cause it really makes no sense. if you really dont bothered about it, i guess you wouldnt even have brought up the matter in the first place. hah

anw i think it's time for me to get into the habit of sleeping early before i can really get well. this cough thing has been there since march i think.
haha. 5mths. exactly how long since we last talk eh.
but i still couldnt make myself forgive you.
you are really too much of a disappointment.
and i never knew this day would come so soon.
now everything's gone. just like that.
i had my chances. but i blew all of them.
i can pretend and deny that this whole thing is not affecting me.
but hold it aside, its killing me.

life is always full of crossroads eh.
and there arent traffic lights to give you enough time to think about where you want to go. and i guess that's probably why people only start regretting when everything has come to an end.

ah enough of all that lar.
dont wanna waste time on blogging alr.
no whywhylove on youtube today ):
sigh time for dinner.
byebye.

never felt like this before
just when i leave, i'm back for more
nothing else seems to matter